Then I remembered...

I'd found my Wayback but so many starts and stops over the past couple of years had left me feeling untethered. This year I've mostly held it together physically and am still "okay" due to the overall lifestyle changes I've made in the past 4 years. Although I've gained some weight back. And there is no question my spiritual health could use some help. I've just felt so delayed all year due to the ongoing issues with my shoulder that pushed off physical therapy and my recovery in general. In the end, I feel like I was set back a year, on top of a whole previous year of setbacks. I've been living one day at a time. Which is unusual for me. I normally put goals out there and work toward a big picture. This year, dictated by the struggles of rehab and recovery, I had to look at things minute to minute, day to day. I was always thinking "you've just got to do the next thing." So that's what I did. And it wasn't all bad

That approach was most likely how it had to happen for me to get through. But it was hard. While the stats show I had maintained a level of motivation and discipline, it took a spiritual toll. And I was afraid I'd lost my locus.

But then I remembered. I know how to do this. I've done it before — a couple of times. And the idea that getting back into shape, losing weight, and improving performance is a simple (but not easy), scientifically proven repeatable pattern, is the very foundation of The Wayback framework. I can absolutely regain what I'd lost. But I need to set and work toward big ass goals. I'm ready for those to motivate me again. And now I know the "secret" and, as with so many things in life, it starts by going back to the fundamentals. With that clarity, I'm embracing the idea that the new shoulder will allow me to be even better than I was before the first crash. Now I can: -do yoga -lift weights -become more flexible -strengthen my core -ride even harder

You can find your Wayback, take a detour, and get right back on track. This lifelong journey requires it, and it continues to play out for me humbling and real time.   So that's how I'm ending this year and starting the next. Firmly and optimistically on this path (again.)